Chapter 5

I was so shocked that my entire body froze. His lips felt electrifying against my lips. I shut my eyes when I started to feel a different sensation. His hand lifted to my wet hair, tucking it behind my left ear before deepening the kiss. When I realized what was happening, I tried to push on his chest with my hands. But he grabbed my wrists with one hand and locked them behind my back. He broke the kiss and touched my lips with his fingertips. "Why do these lips feel like they are virgin lips? Why are you playing hard to get with me? Didn't they tell you that I like rough?" I had no idea what he was talking about. Of course, it was my first kiss, which he stole away from me. "I-" Before I could stop him, he buried his face in my neck. "What's with this smell? I'm warning you. Don't play any tricks with me. It will be just one night." I was stunned by his words. I felt tears well up in my eyes. 'One night? Is he thinking that I am one of those girls? No, I don't want to be one of them.' "Leave me...ahhh!" I was trying to mumble in a lower tone, but I ended up letting out a moan when he kissed and sucked my neck. "If you moan again, I will take you right here, right now," he said with a deep voice. I was startled. He was so close to me, and I had never been this close to any other boy before. Surprisingly, my heart began to beat rapidly again, as it did every time I saw him. He began to run his hands over my long coat, as if looking for something. "Where's the rope?" He asked as he moved his face to mine. "W-Wha–" "IAN, WHERE ARE YOU?" Ronald's voice echoed in the corner. Ian moved away from me and muttered, "Such bad timing!" I stared at his silhouette with wide eyes and had no idea what to do. "We will continue later," he said to me before returning to the party. When he walked away, I looked behind him. I slowly touched my lips, and they trembled. "What just happened?" I heard the ringtone of my phone. I took out my phone from my bag and noticed it was Abigail's call. "H-Hello?" "Hey! Where are you? We have been searching for you." "I am close to the washroom. Ummm..downstairs." "Wait, what are you doing there? Didn't Luke tell you to use the washroom upstairs?" "I got lost." I lied to her. "Okay, wait there. I am coming." "Okay." I was an idiot. I could have used my phone's flashlight when I got out of the restroom. I took out my glasses and put them on before stepping out of the corner. I noticed Abigail and Luke coming my way. "We were so worried about you," Luke said to me. "I'm sorry, guys." I apologized to them. I recalled what had happened there. I gulped and lowered my head to hide my face with my hair. "Are you okay?" Abigail asked me when she tried to observe me." "Y-Yeah. I want to go back home." Luke sighed and nodded his head. "You came today. That's enough for me. Let me drive you home." I shook my head. "No, it's your party. How can you leave?" "Then I will drop you off at home, as I promised," Abigail said. "No, I can go back alone. I don't want any of you to leave this party for me. I'll be upset." "Then I will tell my driver to take you home. Is that okay with you?" Luke asked. I thought about it for a moment before giving him a nod. I was about to take off the coat Abigail had given me. But she said she would take it back from me tomorrow. So I agreed and decided to leave Luke's guest house. While walking to the main door, my gaze kept wandering around the entire house. I scolded myself for searching for the person. I ran into Debra on the way. She was still with the new guy. She hugged me and told me to go home safely. I stepped out of the house and noticed Luke's driver waiting for me outside the car. He held the back door open for me. I walked up to Luke's car, but something caught my attention, and I paused. Something pierced my heart as I looked to the left. Ian was kissing that white bikini girl. She had changed into a sexy dress. They were leaning against Ian's car. I was staring at him. He did not take time to change girls. He was kissing me a while back and was now kissing another girl. Suddenly, his eyes fell on me. I expected him to react, but instead he ignored me and continued kissing the girl as if I were invisible. "Miss," Luke's driver called me. I turned away from Ian and quickly got into the car. As soon as the driver shut the door, tears streamed down my face. I peered through the car window at Ian. I was ashamed of myself. Why did I let him kiss me? Why did I feel that way? Why did my heart race whenever he was close to me? 'Why do I even feel this way for him when we don't even know each other?' I asked my heart, closed my eyes, and pressed my head back against the seat. The driver started the car. My mind kept replaying everything over and over. It was not a lie that my heart desired him. I knew he was a bad boy, the most dangerous Alpha in my pack who would become the head Alpha very soon. He did not have an interest in love or affection. He only believed in matebond, so he was simply using other girls to satisfy his desire until he found his mate. I wondered who would be his mate. Would he treat her really well? No one had ever seen him behaving softly with any girl. Would he love that girl? What about me? Who was my mate? Did I cheat my mate by letting another boy kiss me? Wasn't it wrong to feel like this for someone else? I opened my eyes and gazed at the sky. I could not help but think, ‘Where are you, Mate?’