Chapter 185 Paying My Own Debts

Hilary let go after realizing she bit my shoulder until it drew blood. Then, she said to me with tears on her face, “Did you know? When I was twenty years old, I had already begun to fantasize about the birth of my first child. I wondered what they’d look like and how I should dress them. I knew I’d buy them a lot of clothes, and I’d be there when they learn how to walk, to walk, and bring them to play in the playground. But just a few days ago, when I found out I was pregnant, I felt like this was a joke that God was playing on me. Now that the child is gone, it feels like my heart has gone with it too…” She proceeded to cry loudly. I didn’t stop her. This kind of emotion would crush her if she kept holding it in, and crying was good for her now. “It's all my fault; I’ve wronged you. I'm sorry, Hil. I’m sorry...” I kept apologizing while holding her tight in my arms.