Chapter 8 Possessiveness

POSSESSIVENESS "Feeling of possession that a dominant and absorbing person develops in relation to another or others" ************************************** " Breathe!" I hear the voice that has shaken my body for the past hour." Darling, breathe." My gaze gets lost in his, deep. I have just had the most extraordinary and unsettling experience of my life, nothing my friends told me prepared me for this, I had heard about it, I had read about it, but I thought it was exaggerated, nothing could have prepared me for what just happened and the most incredible thing of all, it was my first time. " What happened?" I ask him, but I know, it must have been that, my body flew, it was as if my soul was leaving it, to immerse itself in a world of pleasure, the sensation was so strange, so incredibly comforting and suffocating at the same time, that for a moment I thought I was dying, that my heart was stopping forever and the next, I was swimming in the most exciting and extraordinary sensation of my life. Oh my God! This has been the best experience of my life. " The little death." says the Wicked Gentleman calmly, his long fingers caressing my cheek and descending down my neck, I am still tied up, but it is not uncomfortable, despite everything that has happened, his gentle touch shakes me again. Am I becoming a sex addict? " Did I have a post"orgasmic fainting spell? Does it always happen?" He smiles and sits beside me, releasing my hands, I caress them and move my arm." " No, Darling, it was a pleasure to experience it with you for the first time." he tells me and continues to release my feet, caressing them calmly. " You were suffocating me with your hands." he plays with my body again, his fingers running over me slowly, gently. " It was just a little game, you were so available and excited that I wanted to try it with you, I would never have pressed harder or hurt you, you can trust me." He gets up from the bed, gloriously naked, I hold my breath." Come with me." he extends his arm and helps me up from the bed, I don't understand, my mind hasn't activated any alarms, usually, I avoid men who have a danger warning engraved on them and this one has it with spotlights and bright lights, but here I am, letting myself be consumed by his gaze, his voice, and his caresses. He takes my hand and leads me to the shower, I feel the moisture on my legs and lower my gaze, he stops and looks at me, furrows his brow and stops behind my body. The bathroom is immense, I watch him through the mirror, he takes something in his hands and combs my hair, then gathers it at the top of my head, his hand descends down my spine and stops at the base of my buttocks, I tremble completely, I am like jelly in his hands, clay ready for his delight. " At first, I thought you had just been away for a while and I loved it." I hear his deep, whispering voice. How can a man speak in such a way and touch me so deeply? It's as if he's activating all my nerve endings with his voice." But now, I am amazed by what I have discovered!" He stands up and takes my hand, opens the shower, tests the water temperature, and when he's sure it's warm, he gently pushes me in, takes a soft sponge, and starts washing my body. His hands roam all over my body, caressing my center calmly, and I feel his erection starting to grow against my backside. He turns me around and takes my face in his hands, his lips possessively capturing mine, and I feel like the kiss has lasted an eternity. The Naughty Gentleman takes me out of the shower and starts drying me with a very fluffy towel. I am very excited and although I feel a little pain, I am dying to feel him inside me again. I know I should leave, it's late and they probably won't pay for my taxi service, but despite that and all the things warning me that this is crazy, I want to be with him again. I lean in and kiss him, undo the white towel he's covering himself with and touch his backside, it's so firm that my hands caress with pleasure. I am still naked, press my pelvis against his, and moan into his mouth. I don't recognize myself anymore, I don't know who I am, I just feel the need to have him, just for me. " Darling, you must not overstep." he says, moving my hands away from his behind. Do you know I was a virgin?" We will have plenty of time later, but not today, not now, you must recover." he kisses me on the forehead and leaves the bathroom. He's excited, I can see it from a mile away, so I don't understand what the problem is. " Didn't you like me?" I ask as I watch him start to dress. " You have no idea how far from reality you are." What does he mean by that? I watch as he buttons up his shirt, equally desirable with his clothes on. It was your first time and in my opinion, it was intense, I wasn't careful, I didn't know, I didn't take care of you. Now you must rest, it won't happen again, I always take care of what's mine." he says, approaching me, still naked, watching him and instead of feeling embarrassed by what he just told me, I feel angry, furious." " I am not your possession." I reply." I decide for myself and thank you for everything, but you're right, it's been enough, sir." I walk towards where my clothes are, start getting dressed, I'm angry, he has no right to decide for me.